In a fight for my life and it’s not about you and me
it’s about a state of mind, it’s about having all the ability
and knowing you have it but you not rising to the switch
am I comfortable in this place
why do I torture my own soul by denying the transformation
that is on the tip of my nose, literally I can feel it in my soul
it’s there waiting on me
(Anonymous) are you ready, are you ready to really see
Lord I know you cut me this way
why do I deep down inside fight your saving grace
murder murder I kill my soul, I drown it out
through repetition, in the back of my mind
I know all rest with a decision, a simple decision
but I stay caught up in the mediocrity of life
entertaining and dumbing it down
I just say to myself I don’t belong in this place
why the heck can I not reside in the place I should
be Lord I know I am going in circles again
what is wrong with me
Lord for every stigma and demise that has been spoken over me
break those chains so I can be free, its holding me back in a false form of me
this I cannot fight, deeply rooted issues of no sense of belonging
feeling like there’s no love that is especially for me
no love of a mother and father loneliness clouds my heart and my soul deep inside
God I don’t know all you have in store for me but the devil has his foot in my chest
he got a grave for me, where he can rejoice that a slain soldier never made to a general in the
war
A liar I know he is cause somehow someway I know he will have to salute me and take a bow
I’ve been fighting for so long with minimum elevation, I am my own casualty at this point
I paid my dues and desire to watch young soldiers rise not be in the same battle
Lord your daughter…..I know you will work this out through the will of me
Anonymous
2/24/12
2/24/12
