Sacrificial Me

Sacrificial me, love me unconditionally

Make me feel wanted, tell me you need me
Oh how I give you all these things because
This is what I believe love should be

See me, see me I'm over here
Rescue me take this emptiness away,
The agony of it,
How I want your love,
The tears I cry at night you wonder and ask why
I've told you in more than one way, I've shown you
I am convinced that we don’t share the same love
The bond I thought we had; was it a figment of my imagination
The life I dreamed of us having were only my dreams,
How selfish of me to not invite you in and assume we had a deep longing love
How selfish of me to assume we would build together

Sacrificial me giving my all to receive the crumbs of your love,
How you remain unavailable, with limited love
How you tell me to focus on me I guess that was the key the point that I missed!
Sacrificial me
The trail I followed maybe a kiss, maybe a occasional I love you

Sacrificial me, oh how I put myself on the alter to be there for another,
I lay their awaiting your next move, anticipating the next high of you
Why can I not pick myself up, this is not the love I want
Sacrificial me, all to save you
I hurt silently, wondering how the lack of love for me is always manifested in the men I find
Who don’t, cant, wont or maybe just don’t understand how to love me

Sacrificial me doesn’t require much just to feel wanted,
Will I find love in me, is the love of God the only love I need
This cant be true when love is his greatest commandment
Why does pain beget pain,
Why do we put ourselves up for play, grabs or to be someone's pastime
When will I find someone who wants to share life

Sacrificial me!

 
 

Anonymous

2010

Please Free My -

• Mind from the strain

The everyday pressure of living up to the standards that I have set for myself.  Not falling into the trap of the "easy" life.  Striving, no matter how hard it gets, to be better at something that needed improvement the day before.  Striking the careful balance of being a caring, fun parent but then a disciplinarian when the time calls for it.  Not letting down the very few friends that I have when they need me the most.  Knowing, but doing nothing about, some situations that are dead ass wrong but do not concern me in the least.  To let the everyday politics of the workplace roll off my back like beads of water on an oily surface.  Please free my mind from the strain.

• Heart from the pain

Caring for those that don't seem to care for themselves.  The heart holding on to "Potential and Promise" instead of believing the "Tried and True".  Seeing the carnage and destruction come to fruition from the damned acts of the past (reaping the horrible harvest from the bad seeds that were sown).  Seeing loved ones that have given there all, struggle with everyday life and not being in a position to give them a better way to cope.  

• Soul from the drain

This life is taking the very essence of my spirit, the things/people that make me happy is all that keeps me going.  (Thank you Angelique and Tyrone Jr.).  Watching people cheat, watching the lack of respect for another's relationship, the intentional disrespect of relationships that they themselves are in, the fact that people now marry for all reasons other than that in which it was meant for (LOVE).  Seeing people recite a book or movie, word for word, but can't tell one BOOK in the Good Book.  Really?  

• Thoughts from the cage

Thinking that I am not fit to be a King.  That my Throne is threatened by my past actions.  I will not be seen as a leader in my own home much less my community that needs me and others like me, that have truly learned from past mistakes, more than ever.  That the words I say mean nothing to those younger than myself because I am not "Ballin" or "Makin it rain".  That I can't encourage our women and let them know that it was the women that helped me become a better man and that they can and should do the same for other men.  That it is ok to be ok.  That we are making it day to day and it is ok.  NO.  FREE MY FUKKIN MIND.

• Body from the age

From putting in the unhealthy substances that are accelerating my own personal aging process.  From taking the "Quick fix" drugs that we are lead to believe is helping us.  From trusting Doctors that say, "There is no other option" instead of getting 2nd and 3rd opinions.  From the consumption of alcohol in a way that deteriorates our liver and other internal organs.  From the mental poison that is fed from all angles that slowly kill us from the inside out. (Kill the mind and the body will follow)

I am a King.  I am the most feared species on the face of the planet.  I am one of many that will take my rightful place.  I will not leave others behind.  While I rise, I will uplift others as well.  

FREE MY MIND, HEART, SOUL, & BODY

MOST WANTED

August 1997/2010